As we aproach Yom Kippur we look into our hearts for the things we have done in the past year and years. It has been a year of conviction from last fall where we looked at our lives from the eyes of our Father, our Creator , Our Saviour and our All. We had taken steps of faith to move in His footsteps and follow Messiah and His Torah. We thought that letting go of our nets was something desired by Him. I think we all must ask who do we serve and where is our delight. As we continue to look for that family, the one that as "Christians" we met and left behind because what we believe was not what they believe and they saw it as legalism or weird cult, now we encounter the other face of the coin, TO believers that would not accept our walk in Messiah as a valid or even a calling from YHVH. Yes even before we were "NTO" or like many like to say practicant Christians we had made a promise to Our Father. You may do not know our whole story but when I was in walking down the street in New Jersey with nothing on my pockets and a broken marriage, I did looked up and asked YHWH to help me. At that point I had reached rock bottom but I was willing to make a promise to Him if He restored my home, marriage and family. He did and guess what?, I took my life back, restored and in search to make it up to my sins and bad decisions. I left friends, alcohol, cigarrets, and greed behind. For 15 years we worked hard to have the acreage, horses, pool, dogs, money but from this day on I just wanted my wife and kids back. He return our life and restored our hearts. But He wanted us to serve Him more than anything but since without money we thought we could not live, we thought we needed to get a job. It was a dream come true to be able to move to USA and have all that which we gave away to have our marriage back. Sounded great to live in acreage and travel with dogs across the country. All this was attracting us to the same life we had before but YHWH had other plans for us. What? Hapiness without all those dreams and lifestyle? A couple of months later we lost everything, a place to live, work, and now we were on the streets without a penny on our pockets.We thank YHWH becuase we had our family together. I raised my hands, gave up, and said whatever you want God! I have no where to take my family or money to go anywhere. Within 15 minutes we had how to move from there, and withing 30 min we found a place to sleep after the hurricanes had destroyed everything. But I promised YHWH I would do anything He wanted me to do. I promised I was not going to look for money or wealth just Him. I learned from the first time the 10th of 0 was 0. But I learned that in Him I had everything I cared from in my life. Now my love for YHWH grew 100x fold my commitment to Him was sealed in my heart. Oh how great os our Elohim! I could sing it all day long. I was born again, I let go an my net, I have it all and hoped He would bless me with a 10th and keep 90%. I want to scream at those that say I do not want to, because I can not say I can not brake my promise. I love Him so much and fear Him in respect to His promises that I can not walk anymore unless He holds my hand and directs me in the path He wants me. It may seem strange to many but that is how I know YHWH. I shall live by every Word that comes out His mouth. I shall eat the crumbs from under the table. I shall trust in His guidance and provision until His desire is accomplish. Everytime I ask myself a question, He asks me "Do you trust Me". I am sorry if I offend your way of living, depending of job security, nice things, retirement plans, big home and confort. I messed up and I had to choose. My hands are not idle as I share this testimony and the Good News Yahshua told us to spread. I am glad for you blessings but as for me and my house we will serve YHWH. When I saw Yahshua walked by He said let go of your nets and "Follow Me, I will make you a fisher of men". I am waiting for His direction not because I desire to do so but because is what I feel that is His plan to show others He can do it. Every day that passes is a larger testimony. When many start to cry because there is no jobs or money we will be able to give testimony and say "Do you trust Him?" ,"Come let's fish". He will take care of dinner.
Now as we approach the Feast and reflect in our hearts why we could not let go on our nets. We may have to ask for forgiveness and repent from not trusting Him enough. Do not store treasures on earth... I repent because I did not trust that He would provide for so long. He is my Shepherd and He will make me lay in green pastures. Whatever you want me to do YHWH, lead me....
Shalom!
Now as we approach the Feast and reflect in our hearts why we could not let go on our nets. We may have to ask for forgiveness and repent from not trusting Him enough. Do not store treasures on earth... I repent because I did not trust that He would provide for so long. He is my Shepherd and He will make me lay in green pastures. Whatever you want me to do YHWH, lead me....
Shalom!